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i regret......i lie. no one does trust me and this is the truth. i still sleep at 1am for some reason. i still procrastinate everyday, not even done wif homewerk. if anyone responds "oh i thought that..", i probably did lied or maybe i didnt remember. im back online cus i sneeked downstairs and turned on the computer switch. everyone must understand...my diet will be over today. stress equals to more junk food. yes and i hope no one cares because exspecially for what i've done to yallls. i told mah mom who my boyfriend was and she was kinda suprised who the person was and that one day she knew she heard a manly voice on a phone call that i received. at least she excepts that we can live happily and take care of each other. however, no one will forgive me exspecially lo gung jai cus i told him about stuff and i needed to take a break. i need time to raise my grades up which means i wont deside to go places til first term is over. i also need to go to a psycologist so he/she could help me. like i sed,  no hang outs but anything besides school. i dont know what made me ignore him during the last few mins. i cant forget about him because hes all i ever wanted. i have faith in you because your right.. as long as we werk harder me and you can make it into the same college. im glad that you believe him me and i will love you forever. when i die i plan on jumping off frum the john hankock buliding. i wanna stop crying and let go of my feelings. mah parents r soooo annoying. LIFE IS SO HARD! i need help.

my computer will be gone in a while. that means i wont be able to go online or use the internet and nooooooooooooooooooooooooo aim for long. if you want to contact me, u can see me at school or reach me at my cell but sometimes i wont answer cus its on silent most of the time. i didnt go to class today but i did go to school wif my parents so they wanted to know what the hell is going on wif me. the assistant headmaster sed i wus going thru depression and stress i hab a slight chance of being anerexic..being bony..hahas. i wus crying in school.. felt embarrassed by that. i think that person frum my history class last year got me into it. i hab problems no offence. dr perry wont be here for days =D.  i wish and hope dr. perry's fucking husband dies during surgery cus she wants me to feel like shiet in class. im going to leave everyone. hang out? cant. my mom knows i have a boyfriend but she doesnt know the name of the person. that means i wont be able to hang out really late during tues and thurs. i will need to live on starvation for a while and im very sorry about that if this makes u really sad but actually u guys dont care any how. i will be nim sorry lo gung cus watever happpened the other day i didnt mean it but i will LuBbb yOu so muchhhie n' ill will missss yOu soo muchiee. byeeeeee everyone.